Thursday, September 27, 2012

The Beginning

2010, 2011 and 2012 have not been very good to me. Hardship, heartache, illness... I saw all of that. But here I am, a few months away from 2013, and I feel like the worst is over. I made it through those tough times with my head held as high as possible, and now that I'm feeling better, I'm looking to the future. What do I want most out of 2013? If you had asked me a year ago, I would have said a baby, without hesitation. Today? I answer health. It's taken me a while to wrap my head around the fact that I can't have one without the other. I have to take care of me before I can become an incubator for someone else =) Yes, I've been dealt a shitty hand and have 2 illnesses that cause weight gain. But looking at the facts, it was a problem long before that. Maybe I wouldn't be where I am today had I not gotten sick, maybe I would have been here regardless. It doesn't matter. I'm here, sitting in a very unhealthy state, no matter how I got there. If I want the future I've had mapped out in my head since I was a little girl, I have to do something about it. With the help of a family member, I will succeed. I will lose the weight that is holding my dreams just out of my reach. Starting next week, I will be taking part of the Take Shape for Life program. It won't be easy. I will have to make a lot of sacrifices, and my will and determination will be tested... But I have to do this. I am very committed. I decided to put my infertility blog aside and create a new one for this journey. Having the blog before was helpful, very helpful. And I will make it a goal as part of my program to write in it daily, or at least every other day. Not only will it help me, but if I have any friends and family who want to keep track of my progress, this will be the place for it. I won't be embarrassed to post the complete truth about this experience, and I hope anyone reading won't be judgmental. We all fight different battles. This is mine. I am ready... I want my life back.


  1. Melodie, I am SO glad you are doing the TSFL program my mom did it and lost 100 pounds. Her health coach and my friend has lost 140 and is still on her journey. It is an awesome program and I know you will have great success. I have also heard many stories about people who struggled with fertility who get pregnant on the program because your body is healthier and your hormones get evened out. Good luck, I can't wait to hear more about how you are doing. Don't give up, this program works!!!
    P.S. I even did a modification of the program for nursing mothers after Pacific was born. Of you get tired of the food there are actually some recipes that you can make with them.
    Love you Friend, Jme

    1. That is awesome!!!! I'm so glad for your mama :) thank you for the encouraging words, I am so excited!!

  2. You go, sister! I'm right there with you. Stay positive ALWAYS.
    Rachel (aka munkee)